So Again, What Happens Next??

Fuck knows!!

I'm guessing that his ideal is to forget the last few days have happened. Not mention any of it and cautiously ease back into our normal routine by increasing general chitchat and politeness, progressing to hand holding on the sofa by evening.

I'm swinging towards the thought that too much damage (most likely mentally, and to me) has been done.

I would at this point rather leaves, live as a failure who would be constantly pining for him than stay and have him attack me verbally again where it hurts the most.

He says I am mentally ill, just like Chris did. Maybe I am, maybe I shouldn't be looking after children, maybe I shouldn't be in a relationship but be sectioned somewhere safe?

What I don't get is...if I am blatantly ill, visibly to him, why does he try to crush me further? Is he trying to push me over the edge? If someone I loved was standing in front of me crying and I was genuinely concerned about their mental health, I don't think I would start reeling off their flaws and insecurities.

What do you do if you ate attracted to someone that isn't attracted to you? Or they don't love you in any other way than a platonic love? If you can't even be friends and sit and talk?

Surely it is time to call it quits?