Forget Myself

I miss my former energy levels.
I miss feeling so hyper that I have to do something to expel some of it and try to calm myself down.
My body just doesn't want to cooperate any more and when I occasionally feel emotionally motivated to perform a task, I end up puffing and panting in anticipation.
It's not just physical either as my head feels like marshmallow. I seem to have lost concept of time, sense of direction and the ability to think.
My memory is failing me constantly.
Writing has never been my strength, but looking back over my blog posts, I seem to have gone backwards back about 20 years. Normally I find comfort in numbers, numbers never fail me, or didn't until I tried to help with M's (age 9) maths homework.

I am hoping that in 44(ish) days, I go back to normal.

I miss myself